Tuesday, December 29, 2009


want a good laugh...? check it People of Walmart

Friday, December 18, 2009

A day in the life...

What Scarlet wants for Christmas; a crown and a pink bike. What Scarlet needs for Christmas; a little bit of PATIENCE! She is very demanding and if I even hesitate getting her what she wants she says "MOMMY you are taking a LONG time!!" I try to explain to her what patience is and that mommy has things to do and can't always stop what I am doing to get her something...and then I trail off because she's not hearin' it. Its like explaining math to me...don't get it...not yet anyway my brain just isn't ready in its pre celestial form. Lets just HOPE it doesn't take Scarlet as long to learn patience as it does for me to learn math.

While we are on the subject of Scarlet she is walking into my room at this moment explaining that her hiccups don't want to sleep. Yesterday it was her arm, the day before her head. The last few nights she has cried herself to sleep telling us over and over again "I don't like to sleep, I don't like to." Again, I try to explain that I know its hard but our body needs rest to be happy. So she repeats herself again thinking it will make sense to me this time"but I don't LIKE to." Oh, now she is telling me that Rosie was crying and it woke her up (she was laying in bed for 5 min. max) so now she can't sleep. She just asked me "does that make sense?" No Scarlet darling, it doesn't BUT neither does forcing her to take a nap these days because it just doesn't happen. I told her Rosie stopped crying so she can go back to sleep, and she said " mommy you are making me nervous (I assume she means frustrated)." Of course I have to laugh and hug that little body and it's sophisticated little spirit.

I just put her in her room for being naughty to Rosie and she is pounding on the door saying "let me out of here Heidi, are we friends?"

There it is, a snippet of what its like being Scarlet's mom. So what am I getting at...I don't really know. I guess I am just venting that its hard to know how much you can expect from your babies. Its hard to know what they can understand and what they pretend not to understand to get what they want. Its hard being a parent, but at the same time its sure gives me a lot to laugh about, which makes it worth it.

Monday, December 14, 2009


It appears I am taking a holiday leave of absence. Nothing is wrong JUST lots and LOTS to do! Who knows I may be back tomorrow...

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Family Scientist

Hello I am a scientist. Nice to meet you. Dave and I, you heard me DAVE and I, have been reading a book together. It is very fun and romantic and I highly suggest it. We are reading The Lost Symbol, by Dan Brown. We read his last 2 books together also, and I liked it. I think Dave does too, but he sometimes complains that during the intense moments I read too fast and tap my fingers and wiggle my toes for him to HURRY up already!

This is a very interesting read as it delves into the ideas and workings of the world of masonry, which has always intrigued me. Most of Brown's main characters are these brilliant scientist in their field of study. As the book is winding down I've gotten this feeling like I really want to be brilliant about something!! I mean there are scientist out there that have made miraculous discoveries, things that I wouldn't even DREAM were possible!! I started thinking about how puny my brain must look to theirs, and how menial and disappointing my life must seem to them. I thought how neat it would be to study all the great thinkers and comprehend their ideas and make discoveries and uncover mysteries of my own. Somehow this kinda thinking bums me out. I look at all the millions of books out there that would fill my mind with wonders of geology, politics, and history and so on...instead I spend my time reading mostly fiction books about a whole lot of nothing...and I am thoroughly entertained.

There is a semi happy ending to this thought process. There is always a little whispering that happens somewhere in my being that tells me "you are doing an important work, don't diminish the calling of motherhood." Then I think, is that me just trying to make myself feel better? Just another excuse for living below my potential. The feeling comes back, if I listen close it feels like its saying "Your science and field of research are these beautiful miraculous people that have been entrusted to you, you get to watch and assist them grow. Isn't it a miraculous thing? Don't discredit this great privilege and responsibility." Its true.

If you feed your babies a white milky substance that comes from your body the baby will GROW. If you hug them, hold them, kiss them and pretend they understand when you whisper in their ear that they are precious and beautiful and so special to you, that one day they will talk back and make you smile all over, inside and out, and they will be your greatest treasure in the universe.


Confirmed. So far so good!


You know it is Winter
When you step outside
in shorts
with a smile because
48 degrees
feels like 70.


ps i don't remember what a haiku is but lets pretend i do

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

say cheese...pleeeease!!!

We got my sister in law Katie to come get some pictures of our new and improved family. It was kinda last minute and the sun was slowly fading, but I think we got some goodies! Scarlet was TROUBLE! She was not cooperating, we had to bribe her with candies, and promises of Dora to get her to smile. It was semi-successful, she squeezed out a few grins but it took A LOT of work. We even broke the rules and tried bringing out the potty words like poo poo, not even those would snap her out of it! Oh well, she is just as cute to me when she frowns:) Thanks Kate you are very nice and verrrrrry talented. Katie does weddings too...if anyone is looking for a great photographer:)


Here we are on that spooky night. If you can't tell Scarlet is Sleeping Beauty, Rosie is a ballerina, Dave is the handsome prince, and I am a square dancer (I borrowed one of Dave's grandma's dresses she uses for such occasions). It was a great day/night. We had a blast watching Scarlet enjoy getting lots and lots of candy. She acted so grown up. She tried really hard not to be afraid of the scary painted faces and masks. She would grab onto me whilst saying "I'm not scared, its just pretend..." Oh the wonders of Haaalllloweeeeeennn....

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


I quit writing in Scarlet's journal awhile ago because I thought I would replace it with a blog. However; I realized I am not keeping very good record of Rosie's life and I have neglected a lot of Scarlet's recent milestones as well! I hesitate to make this blog purely about my kids...even though they are the most exciting thing about my life. So here is a nice journal entry type post so I can rest easier for a few months.

Scarlet loved the water this summer. She was a terrific swimmer, she paddled around 7 peaks without her swim diaper or life jacket and did great. She can dunk her head under the water with her nose plugged. She went down the slides in the tad pool all by herself! She loved going out on the boat and swimming in the lake. She thought driving the boat was great too.
We blessed Rosie Sept. 20th and on her birth certificate her name is Rosie Sue St.Julien. On the records of the church her name is Rosalie Sue St.Julien...tricky tricky. I guess we did it because when we got Rosie home I started to call her Rosalie sometimes. We liked it and decided we could still use it. Rosie's talented aunt Marci crocheted these dresses, the girls looked beautiful!Rosie is the sweetest baby with the most adorable smiling face (especially those DIMPLES). She smiles and coo's constantly for anyone who will come chat with her. At her 2 1/2 month doctors visit she was 30 % for weight and about 50% for everything else. She is a good sport when Scarlet pokes her and yells/sings in her face. She has a hard time nursing, its just too much work for her I think. She sleeps well during the day and pretty good at night, although if she had it her way she would sleep in mom and dad's arms indefinitely! She just loves being held and played with. She holds her head up and looks all over when she is on her tummy and she likes to use those strong legs to practice standing. Her favorite thing to stare at is the fan on our ceiling. It's like she has little conversations with the fan. Scarlet and I ask her if she wants to play with her friend (fan) when she is sad. She usually does. We love Ms. Rosie and are so excited to see her GROW!!this picture (above) was taken by a proud daddy mid-sneeze...we thought it was pretty snazzy.

Friday, October 16, 2009

A moment

There are some moments in my life when I can see very, very clearly the things that are real. I had a memorable moment like that the day I watched my friend Stephanie on Oprah. She was so brave and beautiful and I was amazed at how far she has come!! I was thinking about it all the rest of the day, and as I was laying in bed that night I was remembering something she said. Oprah asked her to tell about the revelation/dream she had while she was in a coma. Steph explained that she felt like she was presented with a choice, to stay on earth and have a hard life, or pass on into the next realm. Steph said she chose to stay, of course. Because of her family.

When I would think about Steph's accident, her scars, her overwhelming surgeries and challenges---I realized I wondered sometimes if it was the choice I would make!? She is in constant pain all day, easy tasks are a huge strain on her, she looks in the mirror and can't even recognize herself! I started to imagine myself in that place, being in the crossing zone and given the choice. My heart was falling apart even thinking about not being there with Scarlet and Rosie as they grow up. I was over come with terror at not being able to kiss Scarlet whenever I wanted, or squeeze Rosie's little feet. That pain, of being apart from my family, seems more severe than any kind of physical pain. That moment taught me a lot of things I can't really put into words...but I know Stephanie made the right choice. I would have made the same choice a million times over. I am grateful for motherhood. I am grateful for those moments when I am filled with gratitude for the privileged and pleasure it is to take part in my family.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

doctor doctor

well we spent the morning at the doctors office trying to figure out why Scarlet can't BREATH! The doctor put her on this machine to rule out asthma. Scarlet was sooo cooperative for the first few minutes, I was stunned! Shortly after these pictures her eyes welled up and she cried. The rest of the treatment wasn't so successful. I just can't believe what a big girl Scarlet is. I took these pics because I was just gritting my teeth watching Scarlet let the nurse and doctor put their devices all over her. She let them and when they were done she'd say "i did a good job." I still just want to chew chew this girl to pieces, she's just so funny and cute! So the doc thinks she has croup-yuck! She is devastated that she is still sick because she can't touch Rosie. On our way to the doc she was explaining that we were going to the doctor and he would fix her so she could touch Rosie again. Poor little sweetheart if only it were that easy.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Guess who

Dave and I were looking at pics last night and were astounded at how identical Scarlet and Rosie look in a lot of their pictures. Here is a quiz...who is who???

Number 1: Number 2:
Number 3:
Number 4:
Number 5:
Number 6:
Number 7:
Number 8:

Number 9:Number 10:
Good luck...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009


Somebody is a lucky little sister...

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Mi casa su casa

Yes that's a for sale sign in our yard!! It's is a very strange feeling, its a very large for sale sign. So we spent the weekend and all morning doing all the touch up painting, decorating, deep cleaning, and reorganizing that we've been meaning to do for 2 years, when we moved in. And we don't get to stick around long enough to enjoy it. What a sensible bunch we are. Actually we may not be going anywhere all that soon, its not really the best time to sell...but we are winging it. Time will tell. I took some pics of the house, we rarely see it all spit shined. If anyone you know wants a quaint Springville home in the most delightful neighborhood...send them our way:)Scarlet is napping on the floor...she doesn't come with the room...sorry:)