This is a very interesting read as it delves into the ideas and workings of the world of masonry, which has always intrigued me. Most of Brown's main characters are these brilliant scientist in their field of study. As the book is winding down I've gotten this feeling like I really want to be brilliant about something!! I mean there are scientist out there that have made miraculous discoveries, things that I wouldn't even DREAM were possible!! I started thinking about how puny my brain must look to theirs, and how menial and disappointing my life must seem to them. I thought how neat it would be to study all the great thinkers and comprehend their ideas and make discoveries and uncover mysteries of my own. Somehow this kinda thinking bums me out. I look at all the millions of books out there that would fill my mind with wonders of geology, politics, and history and so on...instead I spend my time reading mostly fiction books about a whole lot of nothing...and I am thoroughly entertained.
There is a semi happy ending to this thought process. There is always a little whispering that happens somewhere in my being that tells me "you are doing an important work, don't diminish the calling of motherhood." Then I think, is that me just trying to make myself feel better? Just another excuse for living below my potential. The feeling comes back, if I listen close it feels like its saying "Your science and field of research are these beautiful miraculous people that have been entrusted to you, you get to watch and assist them grow. Isn't it a miraculous thing? Don't discredit this great privilege and responsibility." Its true.
HYPOTHESIS:
If you feed your babies a white milky substance that comes from your body the baby will GROW. If you hug them, hold them, kiss them and pretend they understand when you whisper in their ear that they are precious and beautiful and so special to you, that one day they will talk back and make you smile all over, inside and out, and they will be your greatest treasure in the universe.
TEST:
RESULTS:
Confirmed. So far so good!
8 comments:
Darling. Not gonna lie. My eyes are teary.
Tears in my eyes also. Loved that post!
You are a scientist and you are brilliant! You are raising wonderful children who know you love them and you're getting great results. I was so happy to read about your experiment :)
Excellent post. I analyzed the data and indeed you are correct. See? I'm a scientist too! Can't you tell my scientist-y words?!
Why is it so hard to remember that? I always feel so "dumified". What is wrong with my brain? I swear it used to work? Good thing we have those kids to remind us of what is most important.
I miss those days that you were showing up at my doorstep to play. I guess I'm glad we are grown up. The magical faucet is still there if you ever want to stop by and partake. I'm sure my mom has some juice in the fridge for Dave.
As an older scientist who is now on the "other" side of that particular experiment, I can definitely confirm your hypothesis. There is a lifetime (eternity, actually) to learn and be smart in a million different ways. The opportunity to raise your children and be a part of each growing moment only happens now for this instant and then will be lost forever. Good choice, Einstein...you will never be sorry.
PS. Look at the legs sprouting out of Scarlett! What are you PUTTING in that white milky substance?!
I love that you read together! so cute. and the babies are soooo adorable! and haiku...I forgot what that word meant and I even lived in Japan!! you'll have to get Dave to give a translation!
Heidi---I realize I'm commenting on an old post here so you might not see this---but I found your blog and I love what you wrote here. (This is Marilyn (Nelson) Nielson by the way---I was friends with your brother Scott at Provo High) Your daughters are beautiful and I love their names! We just had a baby girl named Daisy, and we considered Rosie too. :) It's good to see that you are doing well---keep up the good scientific work (what a great reminder that what we do is actually meaningful, if difficult and unpredictable!) Hope you have a great new year.
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